Robert was sitting on the sofa watching TV. Ronnie came into the living room. “I some reason can’t get a hold of Lacy. Do you think I should go visit her?” Ronnie asked.
“I…I don’t know.” Robert responds. “Maybe she wants to be alone for a bit.”
“Is something wrong with her?”
“Maybe she has her monthly women thing. I don’t know.” Robert took a guess but he had his thoughts elsewhere.
“It must suck being a woman.” Ronnie sat down on the sofa by Robert and was watching TV.
“It might be really her dreams she has been having. What she said to me recently.” Robert thought to himself. He was guessing why Lacy was being a little distant. “She did say she needed a small break. I don’t want to tell Ronnie that though. I don’t want him getting the wrong thoughts.”
Lacy was at home. She was lying on her bed in her bedroom. “Damn this. Those dumb dreams that keep haunting me.” Lacy got up off her bed and went to her desk and pulled a tarot deck out of her desk drawer. “I don’t think these will tell me much, but I’ll try. Do I love one the most really?” Lacy began to shuffle the cards. After she shuffled them she split them in different piles and then brought them back together into one pile again. She then picked up one card from the deck and stared at it.
“I asked the cards a yes or no question and this is a ‘yes’ card. I do love one more than the other?” Lacy sighs and puts the card back into the deck. “I thought that all this time, I was in love with them both. I am. Aren’t I?” Lacy felt confused about her own feelings. There was a knock at the door. “Come in!” Lacy said a little startled. Abbilynn was at the door.
“I was about the get ready for work. What are you doing?” Abbilynn asks.
“Nothing.” Lacy looked down.
“Is something the matter? You can tell me anything.” Abbilynn tells her daughter. She wasn’t for sure how to respond. She wasn’t sure if she should tell her how confused she is about her feelings.
“I…I…uh…” Lacy was nervous.
“Some is the matter isn’t it?” Abbilynn asked. Lacy nods and sits on her bed. Abbilynn came into the bedroom and sat on the bed next to her. “Can you tell me what it is? Is it too personal? You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to.”
“It’s about Robert and Ronnie.” Lacy said.
“What about them? Are you fighting with them?” Abbilynn asks. Lacy shook her head.
“I am not. Actually things are okay with the both of them. It’s just… lately…I…” Lacy looks the other way.
“What is it? You what?”
“I been having these weird dreams and it makes me feel bad. I feel guilty about it.”
“Guilty? About what? Is the dreams bad?” Abbilynn asks curiously.
“I see myself in the dream. I will sometimes be looking in a mirror. Telling myself that I love one more than the other. When I wake up, I feel so upset and guilty about it. I don’t want to feel like that.” Lacy admits.
“Oh. I see. You’re conscience is trying to tell you your feelings but you feel bad. Do you feel bad because you don’t want to hurt one of them?” Abbilynn asks. Lacy nods.
“I don’t. I like them both. I really do! But… I don’t know if it’s true… That I love one more than the other, but I feel bad because I don’t want to hurt the other.”
“I told you something like this could happen. Your true feelings are starting to be more clear to you right now. Lacy, you love them both. I get that, but there’s one of them that you like a little more than the other. It’s making you upset because you care about the other brother and don’t want to see him upset. Is that correct?” Abbilynn asked.
“I am not sure! I don’t want to hurt him! Because I do care so much about him! But… I… “ Lacy looked like she was going to cry. “I know once I tell them both, he will be hurt and… and I will miss being near him too.”
“Lacy, sometimes you have to do things. He might be upset about it but I don’t think you will feel completely right if you continue this. Think how wrong it will be letting him think you like him the same as his brother? He will be hurt in the end if he were to find out on his own. It’s best to tell him in your own words. I am sure you two can still be close friends.”
“I want to be… close to him still, but… I don’t know about… D-Dating both of them anymore. I feel like I was such a idiot. I love them both but I kept having this nagging feeling telling me I need to stop it. Then these dreams kept coming to me. Telling me. Telling myself who I love more.”
“Lacy, it might be close to time to break off your guys fling and really start a real relationship with the one you like the most. I am sure it will make things a lot easier about better for you. Then the other brother probably can find someone else. Someone else who loves him the most.”
“But! I don’t want him to!” Lacy starts to cry now. “I don’t want him to find someone else! I want to still…! I will be hurt!” Lacy stood up crying.
“Lacy, I understand that but you can’t selfishly not want him to find love with someone else. That would be wrong. I understand you like him a lot too but it will be wrong for him to not have anyone.”
“I…I know! I feel like such a slut! A asshole! I am just a retarded girl that can’t even control my damn emotions!” Abbilynn stood up.
“You can slowly work everything out and slowly tell them both.”
“I… Mommy…. I feel like I am bad! I feel like I will be betraying him!” Lacy said through tears. All these dreams all of a sudden has been making her feel depressed. She felt confused but felt deep in her heart that those dreams were trying to tell her. Trying to tell her true feelings. Something she wanted to keep hidden deep inside because she was afraid to hurt one of them if it were to ever come out. Lacy only began to have these dreams when she recently spent the night with them. She was unsure what made her start dreaming this. All she knows throughout the whole year she felt like she was confused if it was wrong to be in love with both of them. Now she is confused if it’s wrong to like one more than the other. Something she wished she didn’t realize because now she knows she will have to tell them both. She knows the other will be heartbroken from her feelings.
“Lacy, I don’t mean to be nosy. But which one do you think will be hurt? Which one is the one you like the most if you don’t mind me asking.”
“I… I don’t want to say right now.” Lacy felt uncomfortable even saying it at the moment.
“I probably will know later. Well, I hope things work out for you and you will be okay.” Abbilynn left the bedroom.
Ronnie was bored watching TV with Robert. “This is boring. Don’t you want to know what Lacy is doing?” Ronnie asks.
“Does it matter right now?” Robert asked staring at the TV. “If you’re so concerned then go visit her, but she wants some alone time.”
“I don’t get her sometimes. Why would she want to be alone?”
“If you’re so nosy then ask her. Stop bothering me.” Robert didn’t feel like he wanted to be bothered anymore about it. He kept thinking about that kiss that Lacy gave him. He liked the kiss more than any other kiss she ever gave him. It was full of passion. Something he really liked. He felt like when she kissed him before she left that the kiss was so full of love. He couldn’t explain it. Ronnie got up.
“I am going to call up Lacy and see what she’s doing then if she doesn’t want to hang with me then I might go hang with Max and Craig. I heard Bryan was hanging with them today.” Ronnie tells Robert.
“I wonder if Lacy has been having dreams lately if they’re about one of us? Why else would she want to be alone. I want to know if she’s been dreaming about of us and is feeling weird about it.” Robert thought to himself.
Lacy sits at her desk. She got a piece of paper out and pencil and started to write a few things down. “I first was dreaming about me with the both of them. Pretending they both married me. God those dreams. I loved them.” Lacy wrote down. “I also dreamed a lot of weird other dreams too.”
Ronnie had gotten off the phone with Abbilynn. “Lacy just wants to be alone for a little bit. She isn’t angry with us. Is she?” Ronnie asked Robert.
“I don’t think she is.” Robert replied.
“I am going to go hang out with Max and Craig. Alright?” Ronnie left. Robert didn’t even care what Ronnie was doing. He turned the TV off when he heard Ronnie left out the door.
Alana went into her father’s bedroom and saw Calluna in there. “You wanted to talk to me?” Alana felt nervous.
“Yes. Please shut the door.” Calluna said. Alana shuts the door. It had been odd for a few days between the two of them since the incident. “Alana, I wanted to apologize. It was wrong for me to even blame you for things. I shouldn’t have done that.”
“I am sorry too. I didn’t mean to take daddy away if you thought that.” Alana even apologized to Calluna. “I don’t want to fight with you. In fact, I want my daddy to be happy with you because he loves you. He wants to be with you. I want you both to be happy.”
“Tj is out of the hospital now and is doing better. He told me that he wants to stop doing a lot of crazy things. Lionel is trying to work things out and wants to take care of his girlfriend and their baby that they’re having. He told me that he wants to marry her one day.”
“That sounds good. I am happy for them if they’re going to be doing better now. I hope Lionel and his girlfriend are happy together too. I am really…” Alana looks down. “I really am sorry if I caused you trouble. My mom was so angry with me growing up. Complaining that I didn’t look like her or angry because I didn’t act nothing like her. I kept apologizing to my mom but she didn’t care. She still… I don’t know. I don’t hate her, but I don’t understand why she doesn’t like me.”
“Don’t even worry about her. She’s not worth thinking much about. I feel like that stupid lady caused so much drama between your father and me.” Calluna tells Alana. “From now on, I want to be your mother. I am also going to adopt you. I am sorry your real mom doesn’t seem to care about you.”
“Y-You want to adopt me?” Alana asked surprised. “Are you sure?”
“Yes, I am sure. My new name will be ‘Calluna Leclerc’, your brothers will be ‘Lionel Leclerc’ and ‘Thomas Leclerc’. Your name will remain untouched.”
“Thomas? Wait Tj’s real name is Thomas?” Alana asked. She didn’t know.
“Yes, he goes by a nickname. His first name is Thomas.” Calluna laughed a little. “I hope you get along alright with them two. They can be a handful sometimes for me.”
“I get along with them okay! I am actually happy to have older brothers!” Alana smiled. “I am happy too that we can finally talk and not be upset with one another.” Alana was happy. She was happy that Calluna didn’t hate her. She was also happy that her relationship with Max was doing good too.
“Let’s go shopping together right now.” Calluna said.
“Are you sure?” Alana asks. She nods.
“Yes, we can go get some things for the home. Don’t need someone else going out for us.” Calluna said and they both left together to the store. Alana actually felt happy that her new step mom didn’t seem to dislike her.